The wacom intuos4's lil usb connection is only soldered on a tiiiny little spot. So if you continue to take out the usb connection from the tablet for say.. storage.. then it breaks REALLY easily, rendering the tablet completely unusable! First my dog ate my pen THEN my tablet broke. Was meant to be!
My work has kindly lent me a tablet and pen so I can continue to totally not draw at home.
But I think I'm losing my enthusiasm for it all. I think I need a desk, that'd help. Drawing in bed on my shitty laptop is totally inconvenient.
This is more of a note/reminder to myself but feel free to feel like you're stalking me.
So anyways.. I've been reading lots of books and watching streams of people studying and come to the conclusion that I need to be a LOT more patient than I am right now. I also need to study more.
I've realised from reading books that I technically know a lot of the rules and hows things should be, but I just don't really know how to put them into practice, which is where the studies come in I guess.
Referencing IRL stuff will help me be able to put it in fantasy stuff, it's a no brainer really but I've always told myself that drawing from photos and things are wrong. Probably because someone harshly crit me waaay back when I was younger (like 17) because I copied the rancor from star wars. A lot of people raged so hard. I realise now that wasn't really wrong at all, I was learning about texture and light and colour. Kinda beating myself up over the fact I had all that spare time back then that I could have done shit but didn't.
Need to study way more anatomy, more IRL light/colour scenes, environments etc... basically everything.
Dunno what this journal thing is all about. I feel that writing crap about myself makes me look like a self important douche bag, mostly because that's pretty much what I think when I'm stalking bloggers I know. lol.
But for anyone who feels like stalking me and reading the self important crap I am now writing about myself, I have to let you know that most of the stuff in my gallery is doodles. Not really any thought or extreme amount of effort into them, all pretty much done in a day or 2 evenings.
I want to get better at art. I want to be like the wonderful people I stuck in my favourites... But god damn I'm so lazy.
I just get so bored so quickly when I try and do a proper picture. I tell myself that drawing 8 hours a day at my job, where I draw what people tell me to draw, has burnt me out a bit and made me all uninspired. When I get home all I want to do is NOT draw. That's probably just propaganda I tell myself to make me feel better about it all.
But despite that, every now and then I have this urge to just draw something, anything!! And make it good. I sit down in front of my boyfriends computer (which is actually super uncomfortable) and try to bash something out. I scribble and scratch at my blank canvas for 30-40 mins, even up to an hour just waiting for something to appear, normally getting angry or frustrated when nothing has happened.
Then I see something, in a curve or a swirl I've done and I'm off exploring what it might turn into. This is pretty much the process of how everything appeared in my gallery. Very rarely do I have a clear idea in my head and follow it through to an actual picture, which I feel is something I should be doing.
It's pretty easy with a couple of tutorials and a bit of effort to get better technically at your skills, but how the hell does someone get a better imagination? :C